My journey

"Are you okay,can you hear me?",came the faint muffled voice of the paramedic that was holding my head in his hands. Light flickering,bright then dim inside the ambulance. Shaking my head from side to side I felt nauseated by the oxygen that was placed over my nose and my mouth to help me breath. I lost consciousness. Poking and prodding I awoke by the doctors and nurses that surrounded me. I was in the emergency room staring in total bewilderment,my eyes darting from one doctor to the next. There must have been at least four doctors and four nurses trying to help me from slipping into coma and having a heart attach at the same time."How old is she?" asked the doctor."Twenty Nine" came the soft trembling voice of my Step daughter Naseem. She was afraid I could tell by the tone of her voice. I once again blacked out."Tania,Tania!" came a soft voice from beside me. It was a nurse. She had on a nurses uniform and she had a beautiful smile."Goodness!" she said ,"We thought we were going to lose you there a while back. Can you open your eyes,Tania?" ,she asked gently touching my shoulder. I managed to open my eyes which felt as though they had been closed for an eternity. The light in the hospital room was bright and my eyes hurt. Looking around I saw my two sons ages seven and nine at the time and my step daughter age twenty. They looked afraid. I tried to smile but my whole body hurt."What happened to me?", I managed to ask."Well Tania,you have been fighting for your life,you have type1 diabetes,Insulin dependent,Its also known as Juvenile diabetes. You were rushed to hospital because your sugars were hitting 600 and you were going into cardiac arrest. It was a close call ,we are happy not to have lost you. Your Kids are to be thanked for their quick thinking in calling 911,they saved your life " ,"But how did I not know I was this ill" ,I asked,whilst my heart raced and temples trickled with perspiration."Well Tania you are one of the unlucky ones,there was no sign as you were always active and on the go. Ate healthy and did everything right. Type 1 diabetes has no cure and its not anything you did wrong,its just something in you gene pool that has given up working,but there is a life for type 1 diabetics,taking care of your self and being attentive to your bodies needs. You are now an Insulin dependent diabetic which means that you will be on insulin for the rest of your life but you are still the same person just now you have to be a little more in tuned with yourself."This all seemed like a nightmare to me ,yes I was hearing what the nurse was saying but my life would never be the same again and this I realized over the years looking back I am now 43 years old my kids are grown and i have a beautiful granddaughter as well,named after me.I have since divorced and remarried a wonderful man by the name of Steven, Life is beautiful again. I made a life time resolution the day I walked out of that hospital 12 years ago. That I would be the best I can be in all situations that life would bring my way. I call it a life time resolution as this disease took from me ,but also gave me hope,perseverance,love ,joy and happiness for this life I am living. And I am enjoying it to it's fullest. I appreciate my life and the journey it is taking and my precious children. To wake up everyday and see the sunrise and to be thankful for all that I have and all that I will be in time to come and to pass on a life message,be happy,be thankful and look around you there is always someone out there starting a new life's journey.